Everything went off without a hitch other than Grayson coming down with strep and a little health scare I had at the beginning of December. It started with a headache that was new, out of nowhere and lasted for weeks. It was localized toward the top left side of my head. I broke the cardinal rule after a few days and resorted to Dr. Google. Bad idea. I became extremely anxious and decided to have a MRI done (even though my ACTUAL doctor was not concerned.) The MRI showed a 5mm spot on the RIGHT side of my head, completely unrelated to the headache. Long story short, I saw a neurosurgeon who diagnosed as a non-specific lesion. We will watch it to make sure it doesn't grow over the next year, but it is not a tumor and does not have characteristics of MS, Lyme or anything else recognizable. Originally, I was told it could be any of those things, and that they just didn't know. During the month or so that this was going on I continued to feel extremely anxious. My mind went to all of the worst places. After finding out that it is most likely nothing, I made the easy decision to take better care of myself. Like many, I indulged more than I should have over the holidays and gave up the gym. Not only was I feeling tired, sluggish and bloated, I believe it contributed to the anxiousness I was feeling. If I am going to worry this much about my health, why am I not taking care of my health?! Unlike previous years, my new year started with a desire to be healthy and put good foods in my body for my long term health. In previous years my sole goal was SKINNY. It has been such a change of mindset for me and really much easier to stay on track with a goal that actually matters to me. I've known the danger of sugar and chemically modified foods and now I am going to say no to them more times than not. I will never be the perfect eater. I love bad food too much! I will however, be conscious of what goes in my mouth and make better choices most of the time. I already feel so much better and as a side effect of being healthier, I have lost 8 pounds. This week I started hot yoga. WHY OH WHY did I wait so long? It's really, really heavenly. I love everything about it from sweating and difficult poses to the refreshing, zen like feeling I have during and after class.
Another lesson learned through this was to rely on my faith, it is there for reason. I came to a point where the worry was making me feel sick. I knew then to go back to what I know. I focused heavily on the scripture of Jesus' promises. Shortly after, and prior to my neurosurgeon appointment I had a strong sense of peace wash over me. It was a reminder to me, to go there first not last. Every time I have struggled in my life I have seen the power of God work when I chose to trust Him and his plan for my life. It's an experience that I can't explain, but am so thankful for.
I am learning so much about my body and how to take care of it through the research I have been doing. It's my new hobby! So cheers to a healthier me in 2017!
PS. The headache went away and was possibly caused by a change in medication. Back to normal!
